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| well, so anyway, no one reads these nowadays, and i only write here when im angry and such, but yea, im dont really get mad much anymore, im actually content... NOT happy, but satisfied. LOL if I was happy, id be waaaaaaaaaaay away from houston, id probably be in canada EH? so yea, this has been a little update on lil' abner's life!
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| so anyways... summers gonna be over and school is gonna start again... i cant say im not looking forward to it, i just want it to be finally over so i can move on to a higher degree of education... yea, but the problem is i hve no idea what on earth i want to major in... i really like the sciences... but not really sure on what kind of science i really like... lets see...
hmm.... i want to be a doctor of some sort for sure
but i also want to conduct experiments
and i want to teach people things
but... i dont wanna do work... yea, thats kinda bad because in order to achieve something, you gotta work for it.
what to do what to do... man the future is ALWAYS undecided, gosh that just gets really annoying, if only someone would point me in the right direction... well, im off so see ya!
til next time, my bunshin kuns... lets see, a kage bunshin or a mizu bunshin... you decide
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| man, that last entry wasnt like me. sorry to whoever reads this still | | |
| man i quit, theres no use in trying anything anymore. so if you aske me, ill be like "like i give a rats ass about it"
so im pissed off yea, not just any ordinary pissed off moods. but one of those that really just sets me down in front of this pc and start typing.
so it goes like this:
ive been told to do things my whole life. and today i was really exhausted that i could barely stand up. so then comes dinner time, and my dad was like alyssa give me a piece of paper so i can write down what you need to do. and i tell him you might as well write everything for me cuz i do everything in the house anyways. and then he had the nerve to get mad... i was like hell NO. im the one doing all the labor at home and all he does is freaking tell me to do more and no one even notices anything. so i was like to hell with him. then he says im being disrespectful... ok lets see here... since i was born, all i did was follow what they said. ive done it without saying a single word for almost 15 years... yea 15 or so. when i ask my parents to do something so simple like drive me around or something they tell my siblings to do that. thats the best example of being a parent.
yea, so my dad got mad because i couldnt do something he had asked like 2 weeks ago, which was to donate my old pc to the church rectory. ok lets see... how am i supposed to do that? he said it was so simple and all i had to do was freaking drive there... simple right? well i cant drive yet thanks to them. whose fault is that? i wanted to go to drivers ed december but what happens instead? NOTHING now im stuck here in the middle of summer not doing anything. yea, i cant really apply for drivers ed because who the hell is gonna pay for it. maybe i should ask my mom. but you know what? were not really in "good terms" with each other... maybe ill just suck up. my brother seems good at it. he basically gets away with everything. man, i just hate that. then people complain when he's gone... that doesnt help you know... it just annoys people you complain to.
it seems like the world is against me, but i know some people have it worse off than i do, so ill just smile and turn a blind eye to this. i hope it does go away like the people who do this hope for.
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